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Sculpted out of ether/ Painted on the sea/ The purest form of life/ Is how the world sees me

Monday, August 13, 2012

They Met...


He walked into one of those old, forgotten shops beside the closed theatre. Sebastian hardly looked like an outsider, the impression he gave to any stranger is that of a fellow  apprentice from some private studio in Paris - young, clichéd, yet well-paid. At first the store looked deserted, locked from inside. It was too dark to see, but then a tall man with an overcoat walked out of it, towards the narrow lanes lined with bird-sellers. It was a busy day at Dominique Square. The market was overflowing with buyers, sellers, merchants, sailors, travellers, musicians,church-goers, revellers. Young nuns in black clothes were seen buying incense and rosary from a temporary stall, right next to the statue of Kafka. Prostitutes in bright yellow and red dresses thronged outside the Church gate, hoping to start the day's business. Two of them mocked at the priests walking out of the five hundred years-old Chateau de Nicholas. Once inside , Sebastian saw a grey-haired man in blue suit, counting coins at the counter. Not knowing too much French the visitor managed to say that he was looking for oil paints. The old man showed him the corner where pails of colours, paint brushes, palettes were all piled up, uneasily, almost forgotten. There was another woman, almost twenty-seven, light-haired, fair-skinned with regular features, near the farthest counter. Sebastian approached her in broken French, with a strong Spanish accent. She answered him in Spanish, without even looking up from the yellowed French translation of Shskespeare's "Love's Labour's Lost", which she was reading. She told him that they have run out of white paints, that he can buy grey or green or blue  if he wants. When Sebastian insisted on the colour white, she first looked up, into his face and said in a tone meant only for sixteenth century courtly exchanges, that they no longer keep white paints for no one asks for them. The pallor of her vanilla-white dress and her thick-rimmed glasses would almost force, even her most ardent lovers to miss the lightly misleading yet divine glint in her ocean green eyes. "Divinity has its own new meaning in this part of the world" Sebastian thought to himself. He knew if he would paint her, and put her portrait in his studio, it would definitely draw attention from a host of buyers with handsome offers. He even might get orders from rich merchants and lawyers to paint their wives and children. He would name his painting the "Woman In White”, he thought.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Melancholia

A  life lessoned
In a life lessened
At a lifeless end.


A dream deferred
For the dream differs
Or is it differance?

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Mermaid's Song


Can you hold on for a second?
Those tears in your eyes
For I would swim in that lake
For once, before I die
Don’t speak of love tonight
We’ll have time for it.
But if I drown in your lake
You think this wreath will fit
My hyacinth-smelling head?
And this song will sound apt
Beside my oyster-bed?
O another drop I see
Is it born just for me?
Pushing me to my second death
My oceanic ecstasy..
Yes love has left me cold
As I had been fondly told
“I will love you more than thee”
Say what can you claim more
Than what they did before?
Would you cry just for me
Love, that’s all I wish to see…

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Flight... DELAYED, not CANCELLED


I won't care to fly
Even if you give me purple new wings
And paint a spotless sky
Even if you have an artist's brush
You don't know, not yet
The colours I like
'Cause I don't want to rush
Even if my words move like light
Between two clashing spheres of reality.


P.S. To the one who just got boarding passes of FLIGHT 41011 to Illyriana.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

To the "Perfect" lover... who died in the womb


Fragments from our Spanish tryst
Crowding on my opposite wall
Like vapors from a morning mist
I see them rise , I see them crawl

Oh, you cannot see them

They are perfectly small
Like those shy red paisleys
On my black evening shawl

Remember?

The violin player and his Pekinese dog
The tired swallows wrapped in fog
The three old priests on their way to church
Sleepy little bats hanging from the arch

By the wine boutique
You don’t recall it at all?

How we waltzed in the warm wooden hall?
How I envied the wedding dress
On that Korean doll?
And how you loved her Oriental smile…

You…
Where are you now?

In that dream that’s lost in void
Or on that film that the sun destroyed?

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Dark Circles


I get them as i wake up from your dream
Like i have forgotten my under-eye cream


They are not actual black-shaded spheres
But shallow dark crescents for my trailing tears


Nest for their soul, they glisten as they roll
As i descend to the haunted first floor


Down the spiral staircase to that locked door
Where our dreams lie broken, lifeless to their core


Does every new beginning come to an end?
And the moon is eternally engulfed by the fiend?

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Open Door

When pictures aren't perfect anymore
And you fall in love with a whore

When water freezes in the earth's core
And gulls die on a sea-shore

When you're just about twenty-four
And your dreams refuse to soar

 Don’t lose heart…
'Cause there must be an unlocked door
That leads to your mom’s bedtime lore.